books44 Chapter 232
Chapter 232
Chapter 232
What exactly do you want.
Colt lay on the bed, looking at the ceiling.
He used to think that no matter what his past memories were, he just had to be himself.
However, this kind of practice, which is tantamount to self-deception, finally made things what they are now.
No matter how indifferent on the surface, trying to let oneself live a normal life in this world, but the resistance deep in the heart, no, or in other words, the kind of incompatibility, how could it be possible to hide it from everyone?
He found it a little funny, why do people lie to themselves?
No matter what the final choice is, how can there be a perfect solution when things are like this?
If at the very beginning, I didn't pretend to deceive myself on the surface, and made a decision from the beginning, wouldn't it have become like this?
However, even now, I have made up my mind to face my true heart, no longer deceive myself, and no longer use so-called rational thinking to decide what I should do.
Colt was still in a daze.
Why do you want to leave?
Is it because of the original habit?Or because of something else?For example, a safer society?
He had no doubt that what Reed said would help him make his choice.
However, the most important thing is, if you go back, what is your life now?
Nanke Yimeng?
No, how is it possible?
He began to regret, why, why did he have such strong feelings with a group of characters who he knew might be just comics?
There are many reasons for not wanting to leave.
When you are used to a world of flying into the sky and escaping from the ground, don't you really feel so bored about returning to peace?
In everyone's heart, is there really not a little bit of the idea of wanting to be different and doing something amazing?
This is not vanity, it is a pursuit that normal human beings have, just like people read novels and movies, those realistic things are always hard to sell, right?
the most important.
If he left, would he really be able to turn back into the ordinary person who lived alone in an ordinary apartment, stayed up all night busy with papers, and was always worried about missing the deadline?After all, since there is no super power in that world, then maybe my own brain power is no exception?
Taking a step back, even if it is really useful, what is the difference?
Revert back to the person who tried to behave like an ordinary person before meeting Valeria, but didn't even have anyone who could communicate normally?
He thought it was a little funny.
If I really want to go back, the purpose after going back is just to put on a mask again and pretend to integrate into life?
Suddenly, he sat up in shock.
Just now, all I thought was that if I choose to go back, various problems will arise, and going back will not solve the problems.
"So, I don't want to go back so much?"
He couldn't believe it.
My own thinking is not so much trying to make a decision, but trying to persuade myself.
"Is this what I really want?"
Not how I should do it, or how I need to do it, but simply, how I want to do it.
Putting aside rational and calm thinking, but relying on emotional impulse, it is difficult for people to deceive themselves.
He thought back to the moment when he was at his lowest point, in that cemetery, Peter Parker stood in front of the tombstone and said the words to himself.
"Intuition."
He laughed.
So, man is really a strange creature.
Rational thinking can not only prevent people from doing wrong things because of emotions, sometimes, it can also prevent people from doing the things they really want to do.
"So, in fact, I don't know myself as well as I thought."
He raised his hand childishly, blocking the chandelier with his hand.
Why do you have to live so tired?
Why don't you want to admit that you just want to be a superhero, just want to be a good person?
Help Spider-Man, help Matt, even help the Avengers.
Is there something wrong with this?
Why do you do a right thing, a thing without any problems, but you still have to pretend that you have to do it?
For not having a valid reason?
But does this really need a reason?
He laughed from the bottom of his heart.
He thought of the past, when he first saw comics when he was a child.
Who tm cares about how much pain and hatred the superheroes bear behind, and how much the criminals can't help themselves and have no choice.
Good guys beat bad guys.
That's the simplest reason.
Maybe it's like what some people who think they have seen everything clearly say that there are no absolutely good people and absolutely bad people.
However, no matter what, it is impossible for someone who has done bad things to be a good person, right?
The thing is that simple, it's just that some people with ulterior motives deliberately mislead in order to show that they are different.
He began to feel more relaxed than ever, and all the burdens were let go.
He even felt like he could really start to open up about the worst things he did.
He really understood why Pym and Peter had told him that it was okay to carry the weight of the past and move on.
Because he found that when he really carried these things on his back instead of trying to get rid of and reverse them through various behaviors, it was not so heavy to carry.
Colt jumped out of bed, and he went to the window.
Looking at New York at night.
New York at night seemed so quiet, no one knew how many evil things were happening.
But, no matter what, tomorrow morning, when the sun rises, it will become that vibrant city again, even in the face of a fallen Helicarrier or an alien invasion.
He turned his head to look at the folder on his computer labeled Octavius.
He shrugged.
……
"Are you not worried about his choice at all?" After sending her daughter away, Susan looked at Reed who was calm and immersed in research as usual.
"I'm not him, and I don't have that experience, so I can't guarantee what he will choose." Reed said, "But, even if he chooses to leave, at least I can stop worrying about what Doom will do. so……"
He sighed: "At least there is a little bit of benefit."
"However, you don't seem to be very willing about this kind of benefit?" Susan said with a smile leaning on the experimental table.
Reid took off the goggles: "Obviously, even if everyone doesn't say it, don't you already consider him a member?"
Susan sighed.
"Moreover, the most important thing is that I have many more important things now." Reid's face darkened, and he opened up the various data he brought back from the universe.
(End of this chapter)