If love can be booked

Chapter 179 Lu Jinchuan is on a business trip and they miss each other

The malicious competition from rivals has caused this project to encounter big problems, which may affect the survival of the company. There are endless meetings every day, with dense numbers, texts, and tables, but Shen Wanning's face always appears from time to time. After a week, things are finally getting better.

There was no news from her. Shen Wanning, don’t you miss me? I indulged myself in work, thinking that I could stop thinking about her, but her face still appeared from time to time.

Shen Wanning, don’t you know how hard it is for me to stop thinking about you?

He was waiting for her call. Even when he was in a meeting, he would always bring his phone with him. However, the phone never rang, and he felt deeply lost. It was dark, and the night sky in the United States was still so dark. What was she busy with at this time?

Shen Wanning, Wanning, are you still angry with me?

Her red eyes from crying seemed to be silently accusing him of something he had done wrong; in the hall, she looked awkward, unwilling to walk side by side with him; the cup of coffee she brought was so sweet that it made people sick; she rejected his invitation without hesitation. It must be said that he was a little hurt.

Endless meetings, mountains of documents, and wanting to fly back to her as soon as possible.

Coffee, a bit bitter.

In the dead of night, he secretly thought of her and looked at her photos, which he had secretly taken and kept in his folder. Just being able to look at her like this made him feel that he was the happiest man in the world.

I wonder if she misses me? Will they look up at the same stars under the same sky at the same time, thinking of the same person in their hearts? Perhaps, in the world of love, there is no fairness.

As a man, what face do you need? In front of her, he doesn't need anything, as long as she can see him when she turns around. Why torture each other over the question of who bows first?

Did they have a fight? A cold war? I felt inexplicably aggrieved. In all the days I've been with him, today seemed to be the first time that things got so awkward. I felt a little aggrieved, not because of the content of the fight, but because they had also had a fight and they were also in a cold war.

Looking back carefully at the past, it seems that after every conflict, he is always the first to make peace and apologize. No matter who is at fault, he can't bear to see her hurt herself, and always blames her for not knowing how to take care of her body. And every time she faces his tolerance and understanding, she will deeply realize how outrageous and absurd the mistakes she has made are. However, even so, he still chooses to tolerate her with a broad mind, never resents her, but takes care of every aspect of her life as always.

What about this time? Was he really angry? Did he ignore her? He just left without saying anything. It's been almost a week. No phone calls or text messages. Is he really that busy? Busy? He didn't seem to be as busy as she imagined, but she could always see him busy in the study. His focused eyes were really charming. But now he was not in the mood to play games with her. Was he tired of it?

Jinchuan, I miss you very much.

In the past, I never felt that the house where Lu Jinchuan lived was so spacious. I just felt that it was just right for the two of us to live here. It was neither crowded nor empty. But now the situation is completely different. Sometimes when I speak in the house, there will even be an echo. Especially in the middle of the night, I dare not easily step out of the door. One reason is that I am afraid of the darkness surrounding me, and the other is that because of his absence, my heart seems to be hollowed out, empty and without support.

Sometimes, even the slight sound of a door opening or the sound of a car shutting down in the distance would make her heart tremble. She would look towards the door with anticipation and nervousness, secretly praying that it would be his figure returning. However, every time such expectation eventually turned into a bubble.

Looking up at the night sky, it was still as dark as ink, and not even a twinkling star could be found. Those good old days full of laughter and playfulness seemed to be forgotten in the corner of memory, covered with a thick layer of dust. Looking back on the six months of living with Lu Jinchuan, he had never left me for so long as he did now. In the past, no matter when and where, he would always rack his brains to come up with all kinds of excuses or reasons, just to keep me by his side at all times. What about this time? Did my previous resolute and firm attitude annoy him? Or has he become tired of getting along for a long time? Countless questions swirled in my mind.

I'd better go out and get some fresh air, otherwise, I'll really get moldy. I miss him, miss him, miss him.

I don't know why my heart aches so much, what happened?

I don't know myself, I just know that I don't want to remember

I just know that I don't want to hold onto the fragments of memory

But it's like a movie clip

Replaying it again and again, it brings back the heartache again and again

It's not that I haven't thought about letting go, it's not that I don't want to be happy

My heart hurts so much, and I can only let it break my heart again and again

My heart aches so much, and I can only let the tears flow down my cheeks again and again

Knowing that tears are salty and hearts are beating,

I can't stop thinking about you, my heart hurts so much that I can't breathe

Tears blurred my vision again and again

I know you've been getting farther and farther away from me, it's me who waved you away

It separated us and also weakened our feelings.

I ruined it all, and now I am selfish

I selfishly want you to still remember me and our agreement.

You said, you said a lot

So many that I don't want to hear it, so many that I dare not believe it anymore

I don't want to hear promises anymore, those fleeting legends are as far away as the wind

There's no trace of it ever being here.

But why? I promised that I would never cry for you again.

But why do I keep crying?

Didn't I say I wouldn't regret it? Didn't I say I would face it bravely?

I'm so heartbroken that I can't breathe. I'm always thinking about you.

I want to ask if you are okay now, I want to ask if you miss me

I really have so many things I want to tell you.

But when the words came to my lips, I put them down again.

Because I don't know where to start, I'm afraid my tears will drown out my words

I turned away so I didn't want you to see me crying, I didn't want you to know I was crying for you

Just for that one sentence, I won't cry for you

I thought I would be strong, I thought I would never forgive you

Little did I know, at the moment when my tears burst out, I no longer believed that I still blamed you

Yeah, I don't want to admit it.

I'm afraid I can't afford this long-lasting love

How can it be explained by the word "complaint"?

I'm used to deceiving myself so that I can have a legitimate reason to blame you.

I thought that I wouldn't feel any pain.

But it really hurts.