Duke Jing's younger sister

Chapter 263 A steady stream of water

From a young lady from an official family to an adopted daughter of the Shen family.

She forced herself to put away all her sharpness and temper and become sensible and well-behaved.

It's because she doesn't dare, she is afraid, but she can't tell anyone around her.

From not knowing who to tell at first, to simply not wanting to say anything at all.

I keep everything deep in my heart and bear it alone in silence.

Although he was young at the time, he could see that her dependence on him was more like a demand for emotional loss.

In him, I find a sense of security that I will not be abandoned, and a feeling of being loved and pampered.

A ten-year-old child is at the age when he or she is reckless, ignorant of the immensity of the world, and in need of love and care.

But when she was in front of him, she was always careful to please him.

Even if she was being willful and acting like a spoiled child, she would secretly pay attention to his expression and try to know when to stop, for fear that she would go too far or say something wrong and make him unhappy.

So later on, he always did his best to follow her and obey her.

As time went by, she was able to reveal some of her true nature in front of him, becoming quirky, lively and playful.

It was completely different from her usual quiet and cold self.

later……

His father died in battle, and he went to the North.

He spent less and less time in Jiangdu City, and every time he came back to see her, she was both intimate and distant to him.

At that time, he simply thought that she had grown up and no longer needed his company and care.

Little did she know that it was because she was afraid that she would get deeper and deeper into trouble, and thus wanted to distance herself from him.

But I always can't help wanting to get closer to him.

He could even notice that she was always humble for no reason in front of him.

For a time, he didn't understand where her humility came from.

It was not until he recalled the past in Linyang City and realized that she had loved him silently for many years that he realized it.

It turned out that her humility at that time came from her lack of self-confidence and the disparity in her family background.

It was precisely because of this lack of confidence that she always wanted to retreat when facing him.

This inferiority complex and sensitivity have been lingering in her heart for many years and has become a habit.

In fact, he felt it didn't matter whether she believed it or not.

Anyway, he has a lifetime to prove that he did not lie.

What he wanted was for her to rely on him wholeheartedly like she did when they were little.

"It's not that I don't believe you, it's just... I always think too much and too far..."

Jiang Li pursed her lips and looked at the young man beside her, "I always feel that a lifetime is too long, and there will always be a day when the oath will not count."

There are countless examples like this throughout history.

Sima Xiangru once won the heart of Zhuo Wenjun with a zither piece "The Phoenix Seeks the Phoenix".

Under the flowers and the moon, we made a vow to each other and remain committed to each other forever.

But later, after Sima Xiangru was appreciated and rose to prominence, he began to think about taking a concubine.

In the end, it was Zhuo Wenjun's painstaking efforts to persuade Sima Xiangru to give up the idea of ​​taking a concubine.

She did not have Zhuo Wenjun's family background, nor did she have Zhuo Wenjun's talent.

When that day really comes, she doesn't think she has the ability to win back a man's heart.

So she wanted to learn to accept it, but for some reason today, perhaps it was as Dr. Jiang said, that her emotions were unstable during pregnancy, which made her so out of control.

He actually spoke out what was in his heart.

"Do you think a lifetime is long?" Shen Beiqi smiled faintly, "But I think a lifetime is too short."

He sighed, knowing that if he wanted her to completely open up to him, it would take a long time.

It doesn't matter. He has always been patient with her.

His fingertips gently stroked the fair skin on her wrist, he curled his lips and smiled, then said, "It's a pity."

Jiang Li blinked, her clear eyes full of doubts.

"We will be getting married in five days, but we can't enter the bridal chamber on our wedding night." Shen Beiqi curled his knuckles and gently hooked her nose, "Isn't it a pity?"

Normally at times like this, if he teased her on purpose, she would definitely punch him a couple of times, but now she was still listless and didn't want to pay any attention to him at all.

He thought for a moment and then said, "Actually, I think the real pity is for our first child."

She finally responded, turning her head to look at him, her eyes tinged with the dim candlelight, and she looked at him quietly.

Shen Beiqi smiled and said, "If our first child had not been miscarried, I would have married you directly. I'm afraid the baby is about to be born now, and we would have saved ourselves from taking so many detours."

"Even though you didn't keep your first child, after all the twists and turns, you still married me."

He paused and held her hand tightly, "Ari, there will be many possibilities in the future, but I believe that no matter how time changes, I will never let go of your hand."

……

Because of the bleeding, Jiang Mansion Doctor said that Jiang Li was temporarily not suitable to move or get out of bed for the next two days and needed to rest in bed.

For the sake of her children, Jiang Li had to stay in Cuibai Hall for the past two days.

That night, Shen Beiqi went to look for Yang.

When he learned that it was Master Yang who intended to marry his granddaughter into the Shen family, his eyes turned a little cold.

The north wind was howling, and the lanterns under the corridor were fluttering in the wind.

Inside the house, the candles flickered, reflecting the young man's extremely handsome profile.

He lowered his brows and eyes, his bony fingers resting on the armrests of the chair, as if he was thinking about something.

After a long silence, Shen Beiqi said calmly, "Go tell him that even if Yang Lijun doesn't marry into the Shen family, as long as he behaves himself in the future, I will spare his life for your sake and protect the Yang family from being affected."

Yang was stunned and asked immediately, "What do you mean? What did your grandfather do wrong that deserves death?"

Shen Beiqi was silent.

How should he tell his mother that his father's death was planned by Master Yang?

The reason was just to solve the major problem for the deceased Emperor Hongyang and to establish his position in the court.

Unfortunately, his plan failed.

He stood up, and the golden cloud patterns on his light blue brocade robe shimmered in the candlelight.

"Just reply to your son according to what he said."

He lifted the cotton door curtain and strode away.

The reason why he let Master Yang go was not because he was kind-hearted, nor because of any family affection.

It’s just because the mother can no longer bear such a blow.

If my mother knew what happened back then, she would definitely not survive given her personality.

Back at Cuibai Hall, Jiang Li was leaning on a soft pillow, holding the ginseng and black chicken soup that Xingping had just made.

This taste... She frowned and didn't want to eat it.

Xingping advised, "Girl, this chicken soup is very nutritious. For the sake of the baby in your belly, you should drink a few sips."

Hearing this, Jiang Li sighed slightly. Just as she was about to pinch her nose and drink it down, the porcelain bowl in her hand was taken away.

Looking at his empty hands, Jiang Li looked at the person who came in confusion.

Shen Beiqi put the porcelain bowl on the food table and sat back next to her, "Do you want to eat anything?"